Wow. I've had several hospitalizations myself, but the last one was almost 5 years ago and I have blocked that part of my life out of my memory ever since. But reading this honestly felt like a re-enactment, you have a very beautiful style of writing. And that part about intellectualizing your emotions to appear "healthy"; I often feel like I don't even have the freedom anymore to express a full range of emotions. Not only do I feel like the people close to me will start to wonder, oh no is she going to "that place" again, but it's almost like I'm afraid of myself too. Like if I let myself feel sadness even for a moment, will it spiral to deep depression and take months to recover? Lots for me to reflect on, thank you for writing this piece
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Thank you for reading!💕
This read has stayed with me the whole time since I read it I don't even know what I want to say.
Wow. I've had several hospitalizations myself, but the last one was almost 5 years ago and I have blocked that part of my life out of my memory ever since. But reading this honestly felt like a re-enactment, you have a very beautiful style of writing. And that part about intellectualizing your emotions to appear "healthy"; I often feel like I don't even have the freedom anymore to express a full range of emotions. Not only do I feel like the people close to me will start to wonder, oh no is she going to "that place" again, but it's almost like I'm afraid of myself too. Like if I let myself feel sadness even for a moment, will it spiral to deep depression and take months to recover? Lots for me to reflect on, thank you for writing this piece